Well well well, what a week its been. This time last week i never would have thought i'd be in hospital and fall off the wagon so spectacularly all in one week, but i'm here and the only way to go is UP!
I felt yuck when i saw the scales this morning, i was staying at 61.6 all week despite being sick,and then went up to 61.8 yesterday, now after a day (yesterday) of eating:
Choc peppermint slice
bread
corn chips
a couple of savouries (this one i regret because they weren't even nice!)
2 pieces of sushi
a piece of toast
crackers and cheese
I have put on a lovely 800gms bringing my total to 62.4 today. BOOOOOO!
I have never gone up this much before but i haven't binged this much before either. And all a week before the wedding! I have 6 days to LIGHTNING ATTACK this and lose at least as much as i have gained. I know i can do it! Trouble yesterday was that because i don't drink eating was something to keep me occupied, while everyone else drank! i did have a few naughty puffs on cigarettes too which i am paying for today with a fuzzy head and sore lips. Yuck! Get into the presence of other women and i am corrupted! No, its no ones fault but my own.
Actually two nurses told me off on friday for being on the diet while sick because it wasn't helping my body get back to normal. they told me to eat bread and other stodgy things. So i did...it just doesn't help that this diet means if you eat something bad it shows up tenfold on the scales!!!!!
So a week. Hmmmm....last time i wanted to crack a weight loss when i stalled i exercised more...today i ran for 40mins instead of 30...its a start! We will go for a walk today, and i will try to find time to do some pilates because the sit ups have definitely been neglected this week!
I met a girl last night (i do know her but not well) who is doing a Healthy Inspirations diet and has lost 10kg but has been off the wagon for a week, i so empathize because i know how hard it is!!!! She is a really pretty girl and it makes my Femminist side come out angry that society tells us we have to lose weight when we are beautiful as we are. But at the end of the day if we are not happy we begin to affect those around us....it's a vicious circle alright.
Losing weight is one of the hardest things to do for me, its not just falling off while i'm eating well and exercising like some people, its a real tough slog and i have failed miserably this weekend. All the work i have put in and i have sacrificed it all for a good temporary taste in the mouth! Worse still is that i will lose some more this week and then the wedding is next sat and i will eat a meal and put it back on! No i have learnt my lesson.. for now though. But christmas is another story...maybe i wont be able to eat as much as i thought...
Right, back to reality...PP days all round for the next few days...loads of exercise and NO CHEATING!!!!!
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