Yay i'm getting a post in before the weekend. Yesterday was the dress rehearsal and i arrived in heels to practice being in the church in them, boy are my feet sore!!!i was in a rush before we left and i put on a pair of Levis that i hadn't tried on in 3 weeks-all i knew was that they were too tight then so should be good now. I was WRONG!!!! they were too big but i wore them anyway. Too big! I will have to sell them now along with my 2x pairs of size 11's.Yayyyyy! I haven't tried my 10's on but with any luck i'll fit them, or at least soon!!!!
Secondly, after the rehearsal we had to eat dinner at the food court. I couldn't find just meat so i had half a bowl of butter chicken and a piece of naan bread. So good! But naughty. Then on way home stopped at Burger King and kids got a sundae. i was hungry so got chicken tenders, crumbed and fried. BAD but so tasty. Felt terribly guilty and very reluctant to weigh self today, but pleasingly there was no change, still 60.8kg. Success!
Groom to be noticed my weight loss. not weird like it sounds,he's just interested in exercise and diet, wanted to know all about Dukan.Was so pleased someone noticed!!!!! Very rewarding. I just hope dress fits!!!!
anyway, today i will do an extra run and walk so that i can make up for the non exercising and probably bad eating this weekend. here's hoping i don't do too much damage!!!!! Ooh and i'm taking the scales to keep me motivated!!!
Thursday, 17 November 2011
Wednesday, 16 November 2011
Day 47...I think!
Well i am pleased to say although i have been so busy this week i have been doing well. After my horrific weekend the scales have been quickly going down, down and down! I had one loss of 900g in one day and another of 400g, other times it's just been 100g but that's fine by me, as long as its a loss!
Very happy. Grand total is now 60.8kg! yes, i am in the 60's!!!!! Yay!!!!!! i have exceeded my mini goal of 61kg before the wedding. i am a little scared about how eating is going to go on the weekend though.From the time i go to get ready on the day i am at the mercy of other people mostly, so will have to try to stick to meat type things. it will probably be a good idea to be having a vege day that day too.
So the countdown is on. Today i am giving myself a pedicure, second and third coats of fake tan, i am having my hair done at 1pm too. Loads of packing to do as well! Hopefully the antibiotics (last lot fri night!) effects will wear off and by Saturday i will be a happy glowing bridesmaid! cant wait to stop taking pills.
A friend commented on how skinny i was looking yesterday, made my day.its hard for me because even though i can see a difference in the mirror (or shop window) when i actually look down at myself i still see rolls and too big thighs. I did buy some control pants yesterday though!!!!! Will be trying them out with jeans tonight.
I honestly am so happy it hasn't been a nightmare coming back from the damage i did last weekend. i was so disappointed in myself for bingeing, especially when the food wasn't the food of my dreams! I was wondering how, you know how they say you should have a treat once a week or something, if i shouldn't write a list of the Food of my Dreams and then once a week until Christmas...because then there will be no stopping me for that day...have this treat, and be good the entire rest of the week? then i wouldn't be tempted to binge on crispy noodles or samosas, which are nice but not my fave. good theory...or am i just HUNGRY lol
Hopefully i get a chance to post tomorrow before the madness begins, but if not, wish me luck at my one and only time of being a bridesmaid!!!!!!!
Very happy. Grand total is now 60.8kg! yes, i am in the 60's!!!!! Yay!!!!!! i have exceeded my mini goal of 61kg before the wedding. i am a little scared about how eating is going to go on the weekend though.From the time i go to get ready on the day i am at the mercy of other people mostly, so will have to try to stick to meat type things. it will probably be a good idea to be having a vege day that day too.
So the countdown is on. Today i am giving myself a pedicure, second and third coats of fake tan, i am having my hair done at 1pm too. Loads of packing to do as well! Hopefully the antibiotics (last lot fri night!) effects will wear off and by Saturday i will be a happy glowing bridesmaid! cant wait to stop taking pills.
A friend commented on how skinny i was looking yesterday, made my day.its hard for me because even though i can see a difference in the mirror (or shop window) when i actually look down at myself i still see rolls and too big thighs. I did buy some control pants yesterday though!!!!! Will be trying them out with jeans tonight.
I honestly am so happy it hasn't been a nightmare coming back from the damage i did last weekend. i was so disappointed in myself for bingeing, especially when the food wasn't the food of my dreams! I was wondering how, you know how they say you should have a treat once a week or something, if i shouldn't write a list of the Food of my Dreams and then once a week until Christmas...because then there will be no stopping me for that day...have this treat, and be good the entire rest of the week? then i wouldn't be tempted to binge on crispy noodles or samosas, which are nice but not my fave. good theory...or am i just HUNGRY lol
Hopefully i get a chance to post tomorrow before the madness begins, but if not, wish me luck at my one and only time of being a bridesmaid!!!!!!!
Saturday, 12 November 2011
Day 43-officially "off the wagon" yesterday :(
Well well well, what a week its been. This time last week i never would have thought i'd be in hospital and fall off the wagon so spectacularly all in one week, but i'm here and the only way to go is UP!
I felt yuck when i saw the scales this morning, i was staying at 61.6 all week despite being sick,and then went up to 61.8 yesterday, now after a day (yesterday) of eating:
Choc peppermint slice
bread
corn chips
a couple of savouries (this one i regret because they weren't even nice!)
2 pieces of sushi
a piece of toast
crackers and cheese
I have put on a lovely 800gms bringing my total to 62.4 today. BOOOOOO!
I have never gone up this much before but i haven't binged this much before either. And all a week before the wedding! I have 6 days to LIGHTNING ATTACK this and lose at least as much as i have gained. I know i can do it! Trouble yesterday was that because i don't drink eating was something to keep me occupied, while everyone else drank! i did have a few naughty puffs on cigarettes too which i am paying for today with a fuzzy head and sore lips. Yuck! Get into the presence of other women and i am corrupted! No, its no ones fault but my own.
Actually two nurses told me off on friday for being on the diet while sick because it wasn't helping my body get back to normal. they told me to eat bread and other stodgy things. So i did...it just doesn't help that this diet means if you eat something bad it shows up tenfold on the scales!!!!!
So a week. Hmmmm....last time i wanted to crack a weight loss when i stalled i exercised more...today i ran for 40mins instead of 30...its a start! We will go for a walk today, and i will try to find time to do some pilates because the sit ups have definitely been neglected this week!
I met a girl last night (i do know her but not well) who is doing a Healthy Inspirations diet and has lost 10kg but has been off the wagon for a week, i so empathize because i know how hard it is!!!! She is a really pretty girl and it makes my Femminist side come out angry that society tells us we have to lose weight when we are beautiful as we are. But at the end of the day if we are not happy we begin to affect those around us....it's a vicious circle alright.
Losing weight is one of the hardest things to do for me, its not just falling off while i'm eating well and exercising like some people, its a real tough slog and i have failed miserably this weekend. All the work i have put in and i have sacrificed it all for a good temporary taste in the mouth! Worse still is that i will lose some more this week and then the wedding is next sat and i will eat a meal and put it back on! No i have learnt my lesson.. for now though. But christmas is another story...maybe i wont be able to eat as much as i thought...
Right, back to reality...PP days all round for the next few days...loads of exercise and NO CHEATING!!!!!
I felt yuck when i saw the scales this morning, i was staying at 61.6 all week despite being sick,and then went up to 61.8 yesterday, now after a day (yesterday) of eating:
Choc peppermint slice
bread
corn chips
a couple of savouries (this one i regret because they weren't even nice!)
2 pieces of sushi
a piece of toast
crackers and cheese
I have put on a lovely 800gms bringing my total to 62.4 today. BOOOOOO!
I have never gone up this much before but i haven't binged this much before either. And all a week before the wedding! I have 6 days to LIGHTNING ATTACK this and lose at least as much as i have gained. I know i can do it! Trouble yesterday was that because i don't drink eating was something to keep me occupied, while everyone else drank! i did have a few naughty puffs on cigarettes too which i am paying for today with a fuzzy head and sore lips. Yuck! Get into the presence of other women and i am corrupted! No, its no ones fault but my own.
Actually two nurses told me off on friday for being on the diet while sick because it wasn't helping my body get back to normal. they told me to eat bread and other stodgy things. So i did...it just doesn't help that this diet means if you eat something bad it shows up tenfold on the scales!!!!!
So a week. Hmmmm....last time i wanted to crack a weight loss when i stalled i exercised more...today i ran for 40mins instead of 30...its a start! We will go for a walk today, and i will try to find time to do some pilates because the sit ups have definitely been neglected this week!
I met a girl last night (i do know her but not well) who is doing a Healthy Inspirations diet and has lost 10kg but has been off the wagon for a week, i so empathize because i know how hard it is!!!! She is a really pretty girl and it makes my Femminist side come out angry that society tells us we have to lose weight when we are beautiful as we are. But at the end of the day if we are not happy we begin to affect those around us....it's a vicious circle alright.
Losing weight is one of the hardest things to do for me, its not just falling off while i'm eating well and exercising like some people, its a real tough slog and i have failed miserably this weekend. All the work i have put in and i have sacrificed it all for a good temporary taste in the mouth! Worse still is that i will lose some more this week and then the wedding is next sat and i will eat a meal and put it back on! No i have learnt my lesson.. for now though. But christmas is another story...maybe i wont be able to eat as much as i thought...
Right, back to reality...PP days all round for the next few days...loads of exercise and NO CHEATING!!!!!
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Day 40- did i miss a few posts or what?????
Wow, where do i start. I see my last post was last thurs- a whole week ago! Last friday i must have been busy getting ready for our weekend with my parents. im happy to say i did not fall off the wagon that weekend, even though i had a rough time on the sunday when my mum, sis, me and kids were at a pet expo and they all sat down to have deep fried hot dogs and chips, i sat there and had my meat and sugar free lollies and when we got back i cooked up my lunch. Ha, like to see their cholesterol!!!!
So it was a great weekend. I woke up sat morning to a reading of 61.9kg...about 4 or 500g lighter than the day before which is a miracle!!!! After the weekend the reading didn't change which is better than a gain. then Monday morning a couple hours after my run i got sharp pain again....off to the hospital with an infection in a tube again, went through this 2 months ago, poor Hubby had to hold the fort with 3 kids. Stayed a night and 2 days, the food was not Dukan friendly obviously, so didn't eat much. Worried all through my stay about not losing weight!!!! Anyway got home and next morning scales read 61.6kg....haha, through all that a 300gm loss..fantastic! Today reading is the same. So am only 600g away from reaching second mini-goal!
Am worried though about exercising again,i feel i should have been doing it already but Hubby says i have to rest. Everything is kinda swollen so i don't know whether i should be jogging around....think i might start tomorrow that way i have had a rest and might not need so many pain killers...
Have still been eating Dukan style although for a few moments there i was tempted for the carbs- when sick,they are fantastic for cheering you up- but i resisted, which makes me feel smug that i am learning to make better nutrition choices for my self.
Tomorrow i hope to go for a run, do some gentle Pilates, and maybe by the weekend (when although i am on antibiotics and cant drink i am a bridesmaid at a hen night and want to wear a dress and heels!) i might be a little more inclined (and a little less swollen) to wear a nice dress!
So it was a great weekend. I woke up sat morning to a reading of 61.9kg...about 4 or 500g lighter than the day before which is a miracle!!!! After the weekend the reading didn't change which is better than a gain. then Monday morning a couple hours after my run i got sharp pain again....off to the hospital with an infection in a tube again, went through this 2 months ago, poor Hubby had to hold the fort with 3 kids. Stayed a night and 2 days, the food was not Dukan friendly obviously, so didn't eat much. Worried all through my stay about not losing weight!!!! Anyway got home and next morning scales read 61.6kg....haha, through all that a 300gm loss..fantastic! Today reading is the same. So am only 600g away from reaching second mini-goal!
Am worried though about exercising again,i feel i should have been doing it already but Hubby says i have to rest. Everything is kinda swollen so i don't know whether i should be jogging around....think i might start tomorrow that way i have had a rest and might not need so many pain killers...
Have still been eating Dukan style although for a few moments there i was tempted for the carbs- when sick,they are fantastic for cheering you up- but i resisted, which makes me feel smug that i am learning to make better nutrition choices for my self.
Tomorrow i hope to go for a run, do some gentle Pilates, and maybe by the weekend (when although i am on antibiotics and cant drink i am a bridesmaid at a hen night and want to wear a dress and heels!) i might be a little more inclined (and a little less swollen) to wear a nice dress!
Thursday, 3 November 2011
Day 33
Today i lost a measly 100gms, but i guess its better than a gain. Was still hoping to see something better on the scales! I think now i have unofficially lost 6kg because when i started the Dukan i had previously dieted for a week with no carbs so i am estimating i lost around 500gms that week and when i first weighed myself 2 days into the Dukan i was 68.0kg. Now an at 62.5! So around a 6kg loss.Yay!!!! Just need to lose another 6kg! Please take from my thighs haha.
Slow cooked beef was nice last nice, coconut really gave it a kick. Next time i make meringues i might add a little bit.
Today is a PP day. Missed morning snack so had 2x egg whites at lunch, i think they are unlimited? i haven't had a yolk for a while, hope im allowed to miss them out. Dinner tonight is Chinese red pork steaks, i know pork is not strictly allowed but i've had it before and it didn't make me gain, and i think in NZ the pork is a bit less fatty than other countries. Anyway, that and a good old egg white for dinner!
Meringues for afternoon tea. They did dry out a bit, just a small step up from the last three batches ive made!
have done loads of exercise today. will get a run in tomorrow morning but probably not much else unless Parents want to go for a walk. Sunday will be even worse, hopefully a walk in when we get home. Hubby is holding stag night at his parents beach house, i foresee all sorts of damage and mess for him to clean the next day! Glad it's not me!!!
All in all felling quite good weight wise today. Caught glimpse of self in mirror at shops and was reminded how i saw myself in same window 3 or 4 months ago and my butt was HUUUUGE, now i look slimmer and more in the right sort of proportion. Being short is not very slimming but i looked heaps better! besides, 6 kilos is better than 5, and it wont be long before i'm saying that I've lost 7, then 8kg! Now THAT will be a great day.
Slow cooked beef was nice last nice, coconut really gave it a kick. Next time i make meringues i might add a little bit.
Today is a PP day. Missed morning snack so had 2x egg whites at lunch, i think they are unlimited? i haven't had a yolk for a while, hope im allowed to miss them out. Dinner tonight is Chinese red pork steaks, i know pork is not strictly allowed but i've had it before and it didn't make me gain, and i think in NZ the pork is a bit less fatty than other countries. Anyway, that and a good old egg white for dinner!
Meringues for afternoon tea. They did dry out a bit, just a small step up from the last three batches ive made!
have done loads of exercise today. will get a run in tomorrow morning but probably not much else unless Parents want to go for a walk. Sunday will be even worse, hopefully a walk in when we get home. Hubby is holding stag night at his parents beach house, i foresee all sorts of damage and mess for him to clean the next day! Glad it's not me!!!
All in all felling quite good weight wise today. Caught glimpse of self in mirror at shops and was reminded how i saw myself in same window 3 or 4 months ago and my butt was HUUUUGE, now i look slimmer and more in the right sort of proportion. Being short is not very slimming but i looked heaps better! besides, 6 kilos is better than 5, and it wont be long before i'm saying that I've lost 7, then 8kg! Now THAT will be a great day.
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Day 32
Today there was another loss..yay...300gm so now i am at 62.6kg. Yay!!!!!!!! its a PV day today so hopefully i don't gain any. Getting close and closer to that elusive 61 kg....
Have had a day at home today, was meant to go to a mum's coffee group but Toddler has been diabolical these last few days, yesterday he bit my friends baby's nose until it bled, shes only 5 months old poor wee thing, i was so embarrassed and mad at him, it took me all evening to 'forgive' him and today i still feel terrible. So i decided not to take him out among other (more well behaved) toddlers, in case he injured one of them. A very boring day at home! So i made meringues again, this time chocolatey ones, they weren't hard AGAIN but they had a nice taste, so i put them back in to see if they harden up with longer cooking. Never mind, i wont give up!
Am slow cooking a piece of beef for my dinner with onions, mushrooms and a sauce made of curry powder, coriander and garlic-ooh and a couple of drops of coconut essence to give it a kick. has been teasing me with the yummy smell all day! The others are having sausages again, i wonder how long it will take for them to ask me to buy something else for a change!!!!
in two days time Hubby is off to the stag do so i'm going to stay at my parents house, so they can distract me from what Hubby might be getting up to! They accepted my Dukan diet last time i saw them so hopefully 2 days at their house will be fine. I plan to take my frozen pumpkin soup, some salmon fillets and they will have plenty eggs. Also snack meat and a protein bar and a big bottle of water, they don't keep cold water. Phew, lots to pack!!!!!
Have been for the last 3 days doing a 30min run in the morning and then another 20-30min run when Toddler goes down for a nap, followed by 25mins Pilates, and a 35-45 min walk, is this too much? I'm scared my body will get so used to it that ill have to do that much everyday just to maintain my weight, and wont lose any!
Have had a day at home today, was meant to go to a mum's coffee group but Toddler has been diabolical these last few days, yesterday he bit my friends baby's nose until it bled, shes only 5 months old poor wee thing, i was so embarrassed and mad at him, it took me all evening to 'forgive' him and today i still feel terrible. So i decided not to take him out among other (more well behaved) toddlers, in case he injured one of them. A very boring day at home! So i made meringues again, this time chocolatey ones, they weren't hard AGAIN but they had a nice taste, so i put them back in to see if they harden up with longer cooking. Never mind, i wont give up!
Am slow cooking a piece of beef for my dinner with onions, mushrooms and a sauce made of curry powder, coriander and garlic-ooh and a couple of drops of coconut essence to give it a kick. has been teasing me with the yummy smell all day! The others are having sausages again, i wonder how long it will take for them to ask me to buy something else for a change!!!!
in two days time Hubby is off to the stag do so i'm going to stay at my parents house, so they can distract me from what Hubby might be getting up to! They accepted my Dukan diet last time i saw them so hopefully 2 days at their house will be fine. I plan to take my frozen pumpkin soup, some salmon fillets and they will have plenty eggs. Also snack meat and a protein bar and a big bottle of water, they don't keep cold water. Phew, lots to pack!!!!!
Have been for the last 3 days doing a 30min run in the morning and then another 20-30min run when Toddler goes down for a nap, followed by 25mins Pilates, and a 35-45 min walk, is this too much? I'm scared my body will get so used to it that ill have to do that much everyday just to maintain my weight, and wont lose any!
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Day 31
RESUUUUUULT!!!! a minor victory but this morning....62.9kg on the scales! I'm gonna take it, even though .9 is only 100gms down from 63.0...i'm gonna take it! i only hope that tomorrow its not gone back up again!!!
I wonder if the reason i haven't been losing weight is muscle? i am more aware now of new muscles in my body than i have ever been in my life. Even if they are still hiding under fat i can feel them forming and some becoming hard. they always say that when weight loss slows down it can be muscle showing up on the scales. well if that is so then the weight loss should be picking up again?
Anyway i'm pretty happy. I had wanted to see that number 62 at least four days ago but four days late isn't too bad in the scheme of things! Felt like i was stuck for a long time but it wouldn't have been quite a week. Just when you weigh yourself every morning it feels like a long time...i haven't been 62 probably when i sped past it when 6months pregnant or 6 odd years ago when Eldest was three. Cant wait to see what 61 looks like!
18 days til the wedding, i can do it i know i can! i know i will stray off diet that night and hens night, but if i try to do it with dignity ie eat tiny amounts of forbidden things instead of stuffing my face until i'm sick i should be OK Ill just have to remind myself of the steak incident because i don't want to be that sick again! Hens night is just nibbles but wedding will be a sit down meal. meat is my friend! besides ill be wearing god awful tuck in underwear and heels so i wont want to eat too much in case i topple over.
Am off to see a friend with her 3 kids plus my three, am taking a delish caramel slice but i WILL abstain, take my protein bar and pretend its chocolate!
I wonder if the reason i haven't been losing weight is muscle? i am more aware now of new muscles in my body than i have ever been in my life. Even if they are still hiding under fat i can feel them forming and some becoming hard. they always say that when weight loss slows down it can be muscle showing up on the scales. well if that is so then the weight loss should be picking up again?
Anyway i'm pretty happy. I had wanted to see that number 62 at least four days ago but four days late isn't too bad in the scheme of things! Felt like i was stuck for a long time but it wouldn't have been quite a week. Just when you weigh yourself every morning it feels like a long time...i haven't been 62 probably when i sped past it when 6months pregnant or 6 odd years ago when Eldest was three. Cant wait to see what 61 looks like!
18 days til the wedding, i can do it i know i can! i know i will stray off diet that night and hens night, but if i try to do it with dignity ie eat tiny amounts of forbidden things instead of stuffing my face until i'm sick i should be OK Ill just have to remind myself of the steak incident because i don't want to be that sick again! Hens night is just nibbles but wedding will be a sit down meal. meat is my friend! besides ill be wearing god awful tuck in underwear and heels so i wont want to eat too much in case i topple over.
Am off to see a friend with her 3 kids plus my three, am taking a delish caramel slice but i WILL abstain, take my protein bar and pretend its chocolate!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)