This is totally all my fault, yesterday i was trying to have a dukan friendly 'nice food' day because i was all alone, so i had a quarter piece of my fave peppermint slice, then at dinner i had tandoori chicken and i made baked falafels. Big mistake, obviously chickpeas are banned from the Cruise phase for a reason, i totally failed. While they were nice they so weren't worth the 600g gain!
Yesterday i weighed in nicely at 55.0kg with hopes of at least staying there. but no, i have jumped up 600gms overnight despite going for FOUR runs yesterday totalling 2 hours of running-it didnt help!
So the dreaded 55.6kg. Not cool! Very disappointed in myself actually. Such a big gain-i didnt even have bread! i wish i had, then i would have enjoyed it. All i can do is learn from this- chickpeas belong in the next phase, and i'm not ready for that yet.
I was actually, then i had a thought creep into my mind slowly, what if i just kept going til i hit 51 or 52? i reckon at that weight i could totally wear my size 8 bikini comfortably. Yes i'll always have stretchmarks but they are a badge of my children and if i ever want a chance to wear a bikini in public it will be before i'm 30 and i'm never gonna get rid of them I may as well do it now! I'll never look like all those tanned slim Aussie chicks but it may be my only chance. I have 2 size 8 bikini, black and then a yellow and white polka dot one lol. I might have to buy more! I'm just so sick of always wearing the singlet and shorts swimming, its cold and bulky. In Tahiti i hated every second of that, no one else covered themselves but they didn't have to,they were all perfect model types.
So maybe a plan....to hit that weight and maintain it nicely until June...and beyond of course. that gives me a positive picture in my head for the day. i need to be focused to lose this pesky 600g!
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