down then back up again

This is totally all my fault, yesterday i was trying to have a dukan friendly 'nice food' day because i was all alone, so i had a quarter piece of my fave peppermint slice, then at dinner i had tandoori chicken and i made baked falafels. Big mistake, obviously chickpeas are banned from the Cruise phase for a reason, i totally failed. While they were nice they so weren't worth the 600g gain!
Yesterday i weighed in nicely at 55.0kg with hopes of at least staying there. but no, i have jumped up 600gms overnight despite going for FOUR runs yesterday totalling 2 hours of running-it didnt help!
So the dreaded 55.6kg. Not cool! Very disappointed in myself actually. Such a big gain-i didnt even have bread! i wish i had, then i would have enjoyed it. All i can do is learn from this- chickpeas belong in the next phase, and i'm not ready for that yet.
I was actually, then i had a thought creep into my mind slowly, what if i just kept going til i hit 51 or 52? i reckon at that weight i could totally wear my size 8 bikini comfortably. Yes i'll always have stretchmarks but they are a badge of my children and if i ever want a chance to wear a bikini in public it will be before i'm 30 and i'm never gonna get rid of them I may as well do it now! I'll never look like all those tanned slim Aussie chicks but it may be my only chance. I have 2 size 8 bikini, black and then a yellow and white polka dot one lol. I might have to buy more! I'm just so sick of always wearing the singlet and shorts swimming, its cold and bulky. In Tahiti i hated every second of that, no one else covered themselves but they didn't have to,they were all perfect model types.
So maybe a plan....to hit that weight and maintain it nicely until June...and beyond of course. that gives me a positive picture in my head for the day. i need to be focused to lose this pesky 600g!

wooohoo again!

Yusssss down to my lowest again, well this was my weight two days ago before i went out for dinner, which by  the way was Turkish food!
55.7kg, yay! think i have decided on a new goal....with any luck i will get to 54.8kg before Matt and Shar's wedding...less than 2 weeks away...
There are no more dinners etc between now and then so its totally possible...although i kind of wanted to stop at 55.5 i think i should keep going. Especially because we are going away a few days after the wedding for a long weekend and dieting on holiday is just too stressful as i found out! Much better to just enjoy it and deal with the consequences when you get home, which werent too bad for me last time.
My friend is starting the Dukan today...good luck to her but i know it works! She will love it i'm sure.

A week on...

A week on and i am back to 56.0kg. yay!
It was a hard week, with Mum's birthday last Saturday and gorgeous food galore. I thought i did pretty well following the diet that day but i must have snacked on a few more chippees than i realized...which resulted in a 400gm gain. But i did not let it deter me, getting up at 6.30 for a 45min run the next day.
i did well the next but on Tues it was Mum's actual birthday and she wanted to go out for brunch before they went home, and i had made a peanut butter cake with cream cheese frosting (was delish by the way) so that combined with a steak sandwich and chips and i was lagging again! But since then i have tried hard and got back down to 56.0 which is the second lowest my weight has been, beaten only by 100gms when i weighed 55.9kg on New years eve morning.
So cracking back into it. Except tomorrow night it is my sis in laws Hen's night dinner at a Mexican/creole place. Eek! There's always something. Luckily after that there's nothing until the 28th of this month to distract me. Anyway i only have 1kg to lose before i start on consolidation! So excited.
In other news a friend has bought the Dukan book, she started reading it yesterday. Yay i have a Dukan Friend! Hope she likes it and doesn't think it's a load of bollocks lol.

After the holiday blow out!

Well i'm back into it today. Even though we came home yesterday the day started off badly with a croissant so i foolishly decided to blow out the rest of the day too, eating a bacon and egg Mc Muffin, chippees, apple turnover,ciabatta bread for dinner and apple crumble and cream for dessert. Whew! And that was just yesterday, i cant even begin to list all i ate in the 6 days off the Dukan.

I can say though, that i spent most of these days feeling ill and full which is not something you feel on the Dukan! It was nice to enjoy bad food and not to annoy anyone with my health food habits, so it worked out okay. And i was pleased to discover this morning that i have only put on 1.8kg over those 6 days.

Pheweee! I was truly expecting at least 3kg. Today has been the mad protein day, with oatbran/yogurt, chicken and a boiled egg for lunch, i will have a half a protein bar for afternoon tea and 300gm fish for dinner. I have already drunk more than 1.5litres fluid and it is only 2pm. Been for a 45min run, a 35min run, a 25 min walk and 30min pilates. Also have done 200 sit ups. Am tired now and think maybe will have to watch a movie with the kids. I will however do another run before dinner, anything over 30mins will do nicely!
I have to be hard on myself today, if i lose even half of what i put on i will be super happy. But at the end of the day i knowingly ate like a true pig for 6 days straight and i have to accept the consequences don't i, if the scales don't shift as much as i'd like tomorrow. Bring it on so i can find out!!!

Have my Mums birthday BBQ tomorrow, they are staying up here for 5 days. Glad to see them- i will have to work hard though because they are junk food lovers. i even associate good family times with food- when i see them i am constantly planning meals and snacks. but this time i need to stay on track as best i can- maybe just a mouthful of birthday cake. i'm sure there will be meat and eggs i can eat! Good luck to me...